First Time Leaving Ella

Today I've been in a bit of a haze. I'm leaving my family tomorrow. Packing up my car and leaving them for 4 nights.... THAT'S 4 FLIPPING NIGHTS. I've never left Ella, so this is a HUGE step for me, but it's for great reasons.


I am partnered with a company that is endorsed by Donald Trump and this weekend I'm going to San Jose to an international training event! I AM BEYOND EXCITED! But at the same time I'm so nervous.... I'm nervous about Ella and her heart condition.  I know that Gino knows how to recognize and will probably be listening to her heart all throughout the day, but I'm her mama and I'm scared to not be there.  We spend literally 24/7 together.  She's my little mini me {not by looks of course} and I hope that she'll be okay.  Who am I kidding, I hope I will be okay.


I've been sitting here tonight trying to type out a sheet for my husband on all of the important little detail on Ella, her medication, her doctor's and what to say if she goes into SVT.  Trying to think of the million little things that he needs to know that he's never HAD to know.  Sure, he's right there through it all, but the little details are done by ME.  I'm a control freak and I make sure that I have control of everything, I'm starting to wonder if that's very smart.


I know that Gino, Jayden & Ella are going to have a great time.  The kids are just as close to Gino as they are to me, so I'm not worried about them not feeling loved and feeling comfortable.  They will most definitely be with the person who loves them just as much as I do.  So I feel comfortable with leaving them in Gino's hands.


Besides leaving my little family and my Ella for the first time ever I am down right EXCITED!  I know that this event that I am going to is exactly what I need to continue to grow my business.  I know that I will be being trained by the best of the best.  People who have made MILLIONS doing exactly what I'm doing right now.  I'm very, very EXCITED!


Please keep us in your prayers, me for safe travels and my family for coping without me.  Ella for not going into SVT while I'm gone (scares the crap out of me!) Thank you!