A Teary Mommy Moment

Tomorrow morning I will go to the cafeteria for an assembly at Jayden's school. He doesn't know it yet, but they will be calling him up for Student of the Month. I'm so proud of him. He's come such a long way since the beginning of the school year, and I'm starting to become overwhelmed with emotions.

Jayden only has 1 more full week of school. His Kindergarten graduation is on June 10th and I'm almost feeling how I felt on his first day of school. It's such an emotional thing to see your baby slowly become their own individual. I can't get over how far he's come this past year and I can't believe how quick it went. All the advice I've ever gotten from people who's kids were already grown and out of the house was, Treasure EVERY moment.... it goes by faster than you'll ever think. They weren't kidding.

I've been trying to grasp onto every memory that I can of Jayden as a baby and as a younger boy. I wish that I had been a blogger back then ~ I feel guilty that I wasn't. I feel guilty that his first 6 years weren't blogged. I feel guilty that sometimes I can't remember him as a baby. I feel bad that I wasn't always the best mom, but I can say I've tried my hardest. I grew with Jayden. I learned with Jayden. I sometimes feel bad about that, but that's what's made us into who we are. I guess I didn't do too bad of a job, because his manners shock people everyday. They even shock me. If you're in his way he kindly says, "Excuse me, pardon me." His little soul is so special and I've known this forever.

I can't even express my gratitude to Heavenly Father for blessing me with such an amazing little boy. He touches the hearts of everyone ~ I love that he's not a rough boy, but a loving boy. I love that he sings. I love his patience. I love his smile. I love his giggle. I love more than anything how he loves his sister. I love that he is who is he is and I hope that he always stays true to himself.

I love him. I hope that I can be everything that he needs me to be. This is a picture of him kissing me goodbye on his first day of school and a picture of him walking to his class with his daddy. A day that seems just like yesterday.