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Saturday, September 5, 2009

Tonight's all about rants and raves.... I'm allowed!

I wrote what I had to write about Mya. It was a post from my heart, and this is going to be one too. I wish that people remembered her. I wish that people understood why I love her and miss her so much. I wish that people who I am close to in my life would remember that September 5th is a day that maybe you should call me, maybe you should see how I'm doing. Everybody calls for Jayden and Ella's birthday, but what about THIS DAY? This day I need a call, because every year it's just as hard. Every year my heart aches... every year, I feel like I can't talk to anybody who's close to me besides my husband, because it's a subject that has been forgotten. She has been forgotten. And that hurts.

Maybe it's not important to them, but it's important to ME, and that should be enough to call me.  I didn't receive 1 call from 1 person.  The only people that remembered were online friends... online friends that have been there for me through it all, have a sincere heart and know how I feel.  

I'm sorry, but I needed to get this out.... this is a day that is HARD on me, and why is it that it's a day that nobody remembers?  I don't want Mya to be forgotten.   




Blogger Stefany said...

I'm sorry you are hurting. I can totally understand why that would be upsetting.

Maybe (?) people are unsure what to say? Maybe they don't want to hurt you more? I don't know, obviously, because I don't know your family and IRL friends.

Just remember this... Mya will not be forgotten as long as YOU don't allow it to happen. No one else matters when it is all said and done. You and hubs are the ones that will forever remember and feel the love you have for Mya. Everyone else is just something to make you feel better (which I am totally not downplaying) but aren't necessary to honor your little girl.

I wish your family were more aware of your needs on this day and everyday about Mya. I am here if you ever need to talk. I am sorry I didn't ask about your precious girl myself. I love you though and will always lend an ear or shoulder if you need it.

September 5, 2009 at 10:41 PM  
Anonymous Brittany said...

Your family should never forget about your precious liitle girl Mya on her special day, she deserves to be recognized as well.

It all makes senses why your frustrated and writing this post. Someone who called you today had the opportunity to say something and didnt because of selfishness and thats wrong.

Just know that Im so glad you came into my life and know that Im always here for even if Im not an emotional person (I wish I were, and it sucks that Im not)maybe someday I will be and you will teach me how to be :)

Paxton and I love you, Gino, Jayden, Ella and Mya very much!!

September 6, 2009 at 12:20 AM  
Blogger Lesslie said...

I will never forget. I'm sorry that others have :(

September 6, 2009 at 12:45 PM  
Anonymous Cynthia said...

Came across ur page when i'm searching for these words from the movie Orphan.

"I never heard you, but I hear you
I never held you, but I feel you
I never knew you, but I love you"

These words from the movie had touched my heart while watching it yesterday. Couldn't remember the exact words, was trying to google it and here I am reading your blog on Mya.

My thoughts n prayers are with u n ur family. Be strong, have faith n believe that God has His plan for all. *hugs*

September 7, 2009 at 12:39 AM  
Blogger Kara said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Mya. I am in the exact same boat...there are maybe one or two people who remember my little girl's birth/death. Most of our family/friends have never spoken another word about her since the funeral. It's tough. Praying for you.

September 7, 2009 at 10:31 PM  
Blogger Nada said...

oh Amanda that's awful! I am so sorry!! Even though I don't know how you feel about this because I have never gone through something like loosing a baby, I know what it feels like to be so hurt by your family and friends who you think should remember something that is so important and be there for you when you need it the most. I know Jeremy and I talked about Mya throughout the weekend, and the most important thing is that she has such an amazing family that loves her so much!!

September 8, 2009 at 3:19 PM  
Anonymous Laura Watson said...

I am sitting her in Georgia at 3:20am reading all you posts.... I wish i could come give you a hug in honor of your dear sweet Mya. i have never met you but feel a connection to you because of Ella and Rylen. I am adding September 5th to my calendar and will say a special prayer for Mya everyday! Here's a ((((((((HUG)))))))) from me to you for your dear sweet Angel in Heaven!

September 15, 2009 at 12:19 AM  

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